Lets grow up a little.

If i were to describe this particular fraction of my life in medical school in a small town in the middle of Europe (mostly unknown to my people and patient or even doctors in Malaysia) in a word, without hesitation, it's solitude.

If you ever got the chance to visit here, you would know instantly what i meant. The environment is so settled, fresh oxygen supply on daily basis, away from the constant need to rush-the-pace-or-else-you'll-get-pushed-aside kind of morning.

Coming from a small town, (heck, the smallest!) I on the other hand, have no trouble fitting in. Being here all these while meaning all that I'm familiar with was left at home. Family, my significant other, my friends, all now a permanent residents that reside in my laptop. Many many nights I longed for warmth and comfort of those miles away. How different things will turn out if I would be somewhere nearby.

Atop of all these, I happen to be someone very picky about the company i keep. That left me not many options, sometimes, i opt to be left out rather than being surrounded but not being able to laugh along and being accused as the spoiler of the environment.

Maybe because I couldn't bring myself to simply laugh along or talk about things that involve other people's privacy matter for the sake of our own amusement. All the constant comparison of this and that.

Maybe because of the glossy superficiality and the quick judgmental comments makes me wonder how will they treat you, should they know you well enough, or even if they know you at all.

Worst, if in the end you find out your most deepest insecurities becomes the next subject of public discussion and scrutiny.

I guess this high school habits wont be going anywhere anytime soon but the difference now, we can always opt out and I don't know, maybe, just maybe, grow up a little.

Till then!
>.<

Unwanted advice?

Here's too something that I stumble upon my readings and watching various talk. Phrases that caught my attention.  A few lines that i privately  look up too whenever i turn bitter and feel worn and teared out.

Be an empty bowl. It's more promising than the full one. Remove as much arrogance as you can, remove self-importance, set back, be nobody so that you can be  a part of something bigger.

                                                                                                         Yasmin A.

If we have goals and dreams and we want to do our best, and if we love people and we don't want to hurt them or lose them, we should feel pain when things go wrong. The point isn't to live without any regrets. The point is not to hate ourselves for having them. In the end, we need to learn to accept the flawed, imperfect things that we create and to forgive ourselves for creating them. Regret doesn't remind us that we did badly, it reminds us that we can do better.

                                                                                                    Kathryn Schulz.

People who listen learn, and people who continually talk learn nothing.Never assume that things are done simply because the decision have been made.

                                                                                                         Dr M.

Having money in abundance doesn't seems like a good reason to waste it. 10 minutes, once gone, are gone for good. 

Turn mistakes into opportunities. Only those who are asleep make no mistakes. 

                                                                                                Ingvar Kamprad
                                                                                                       (IKEA)






                                                             
                                              I hope they're worth sharing. 
                                                             Till then!